Pieces of Me...

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I haven't written in a while, but tonight I sit full of thoughts, questions, and needing to be in a better place mentally. I sometimes wonder how you know when its time to let go and walk away from people, things, and situations that just aren't good for you. Letting go sounds easy, but can be made hard by those things you allow to keep you.

I've never wallowed in my past to keep me stuck, nor have I been ashamed of it. Something about dealing with so much in life after the book; makes it seem easier to just go back to those familiar things. Even in my feeling this way I remember how happiness was so far away from me at one time. They say; "Life is what you make it" and even in our making it there are some things we just don't get away from.


My thing is loneliness and the lack of TRUE companionship in the form of a significant other.Hence the song choice for today. I've been so consumed with ministry, myself, and my daughter that sometimes I wonder... What if I never am found by that person? What if I live a life alone? If you don't hear any other part of the song I want you to hear the line... "I'm the most beautiful girl in the world".... I have to remind myself of that because if I am not sure and confident of who I am; I would need someone to validate (compliment) me. Yes, we all have those things that we ponder on (If you can tell the truth on you) in the dead of night when there is only you, your thoughts, and God. I always motivate, encourage, and push my readers to live and sometimes I forget to just be honest with myself.

Someone may feel the same as I do, but to that person I say continue to be hopeful that the future will bring better days and more happiness than you know what to do with. I'm not a quitter, nor do I give up easily. Sometimes its good to be open so that you can be free and have piece of mind. But, whatever you do; never underestimate the place that you're  in, because life has a funny way of sneaking up on you. So, remember to love like there is no tomorrow and always believe that God has more in store for you, even in your waiting....

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Let Today Be The First Day... Learning to accept who is for you

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Hello all! I know! I've been away yet again, but please be sure that I was always thinking of you guys while I was busy at work. Thanksgiving is near and its time for family, friends, good food, and fellowship. I find myself reflecting a lot of times around this time of year, because people that were close to me or dear to me are either no longer with us or I have been separated from them for one reason or another. Lets just get to the meat of it. When you elevate or have life changes, people around you tend to change or they are not fit to go to that next level with you. I am learning to accept these things as blessings and count it all joy that I am no longer in the place that I used to be. I used to think that "FRIENDS" would be the ones that were the happiest for me, but sometimes you have to sit back and reevaluate that word. I heard a PJ Morton song that summed it up.

 PJ Morton

He simply said this; "Friends I tell you how you know they're real, Friends through the hard times they still are there even through the bad times, Friends will love you all the time". My God! and I can back this up by giving you the scripture Proverbs 17:17  says; ¹⁷A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. The bitter side of that is that you have to evaluate those "FRIENDS" who are suspect. PJ goes on to tell us; "Check the motives and I hope you know this everybody doesn't really care. Some are there to get what they get from you, but they won't do anything for you"! This is the story of my life! I'm thankful that once I begin to transition and God begin to deal with me he showed me and is still showing me who is for me. There is nothing like having a strong support system, but they have to be on the same page as you and even though they can't yet see your vision; they believe in it as much as you do and most importantly they believe in you!

You may lose people you never could have imagined losing, but this is where you learn how to love people from a distance. Don't hold any ill will in your heart towards them because they don't get it! Everyone won't get it , but that's OK. Today's lesson was Mathematics (The name and the game of life) as PJ says. So I want to encourage you and say; Continue to move no matter what and know that it's a blessing sometimes that weights are dropped off of you. The higher you go in life in turn makes the circle of "FRIENDS" you have that much smaller. So, don't concern yourself with what "they" say about your blessings and how much you have changed. Change is good for anyone as long as it is a positive and productive one. But what I would leave with you is; Just as much as you want those "true" FRIENDS, you too much show yourself to be the same. Proverbs 18:24; A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

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What are you going to be remembered for...

In my quest to make a difference, I realized that what we produce and the people we surround ourselves with matter. Sometimes we won't always have the right formula for success, but as my Bishop says; "How do you spell Success"? What may work for me may not work for you and so on and so forth. A lot of things that make the most impact have been tested and tried and initially failed. I have to always remind myself that where I am going is so much better than where I've been. So, even in deciding to be great and do what others wouldn't do you have to always remember to Live and own your happiness. What's the sense in doing the unthinkable if you're not going to wrap yourself in joy and stand on peace.


My motivation is ME and the experiences I've gone through in my life. You have to believe in you and for those that are with you in the process they have to be equip to go the distance. I stress all of the time about non believers and dream killers, but if you have those people around it only leaves you room to second guess yourself and your dreams. Fight for what it is that is important to you, never lose faith, never forget it could have been the other way, and always be thankful for those that helped you along the way. Everything we release in the atmosphere and everything we do matters, so; What will you be remembered for?

Me and my aunt Sandra at book signing

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